Dear Jack
Shortly before Christmas I received a message: Dear Mia, I just wanted to let you know mom passed away on Monday. It was very sudden and unexpected.
It was strange as that particular day, I was thinking and talking about her so much.
I wrote about Firecracker aka Her majesty The Pea Princess in my post 16 February 2015: Life after death
Her death may have been untimely for her family, but it has been an epiphany for me.
I am standing on the doorstep of a universe. One step forward and I can make my "dreams come true by reaching a goal I have worked on for sometime" or one step back and I have the life I longed for since I can remember.
The battle between head and heart. Either choice will have a sacrifice !
It was however with that text message, that reminded me of our 3am conversations. It was a strong reminder of choices we make when we are young and what we come to value as we stand in front of the pearly gates of eternity.
See, the thing about spending a fair amount of time with people who are spending their last years, months, weeks or days in this realm, is that they share so much of their lives with me.
Their regrets, re-live their joys, talk about the love of their lives, their fears and so much they have kept in for so long.
The only thing that becomes clearer time and time again is what is most important: The people they love. They do not miss their life's work, jobs, possessions, cars, homes etc.
My dear Firecracker, today I chose love above all and it was easy to make that decision because I know you are now with Jack and smiling down on this firecracker. I will always treasure our 3am open-fire moments for as long as I breath!
It was strange as that particular day, I was thinking and talking about her so much.
I wrote about Firecracker aka Her majesty The Pea Princess in my post 16 February 2015: Life after death
Her death may have been untimely for her family, but it has been an epiphany for me.
I am standing on the doorstep of a universe. One step forward and I can make my "dreams come true by reaching a goal I have worked on for sometime" or one step back and I have the life I longed for since I can remember.
The battle between head and heart. Either choice will have a sacrifice !
It was however with that text message, that reminded me of our 3am conversations. It was a strong reminder of choices we make when we are young and what we come to value as we stand in front of the pearly gates of eternity.
See, the thing about spending a fair amount of time with people who are spending their last years, months, weeks or days in this realm, is that they share so much of their lives with me.
Their regrets, re-live their joys, talk about the love of their lives, their fears and so much they have kept in for so long.
The only thing that becomes clearer time and time again is what is most important: The people they love. They do not miss their life's work, jobs, possessions, cars, homes etc.
My dear Firecracker, today I chose love above all and it was easy to make that decision because I know you are now with Jack and smiling down on this firecracker. I will always treasure our 3am open-fire moments for as long as I breath!
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